To Live On My Own
Yesterday I added something to my life list: I want to live on my own.
I hadn’t realized before then that 1) it wasn’t on there and 2) I haven’t done it yet.
I spent the weekend hanging out with friends in various parts of Vermont. I went on a little travel adventure and toured Meredith’s apartment and then Mallory’s as well and realized I wanted to have my own space too. They both had such cute apartments full of things that spoke to them and represented them so well. I realized that I wanted the same thing. I want my own space filled with things I like that no one else has control over.
I’ve always lived with someone else. Whether my family or roommates, there has always been someone else involved in making the decisions involved in my living space. At most I’ve only had a single room and bathroom where I alone called the shots. It’s not enough. I need to live on my own.
Financially speaking, having a roommate is the smart thing to do usually. It has been for me in the past. But I’m done with that. I want to have my own small kingdom to rule. I want to buy furniture I like and not care if someone else appreciates it in the same way. I want to share my space and my things with no one else, except maybe a cute puppy.
So it is on my list now.
I will live alone somewhere, somehow.
Except for sophomore yr in college when I had a single room in the dorm but lived across the hall from my then best friend and it was more like just my room in a shared apt than my own apt, I have never ever lived alone. I got half of a taste of it couple yrs ago when I lived with a random craigslist guy, so we never saw each other, but I still had to live by his rules, since I was subletting from him. I am planning on it within the next year or 2… after I move out of my current apartment (I just moved here in aug, so not too soon…). I was thinking like you, how it would be to have sole choice in picking out everything. My dishes, my appliances, my decorations… I can put everything where I want, and I can dance around naked if I wanted to lol (I might get chilly!). On the other hand it will likely be very lonely. No one to watch tv with, chat with, share a meal with, to just hear as background noise in the next room… it’s a toss up but prob something everyone should do at some point. Hope you get your cute puppy! :)
That sounds really cool. I've always lived with someone too. I'm not sure how good I'd do living on my own, but I really want to experience it as well. That freedom. I'm not sure I'd be bothered with furniture choices and such, but just knowing I could go it alone kind of thing. Almost like a frontier experience :D But I definitely don't see myself living alone forever.
@merri
I'm most excited about having my own cute little puppy, to be honest. That should take away some of the loneliness factor. Being alone or it being too quiet is one reason why I never have lived alone. But I feel like I should try it. I think it will be a good thing. :)