I hadn’t realized before then that 1) it wasn’t on there and 2) I haven’t done it yet.

I spent the weekend hanging out with friends in various parts of Vermont.  I went on a little travel adventure and toured Meredith’s apartment and then Mallory’s as well and realized I wanted to have my own space too.   They both had such cute apartments full of things that spoke to them and represented them so well.  I realized that I wanted the same thing.  I want my own space filled with things I like that no one else has control over.

I’ve always lived with someone else.  Whether my family or roommates, there has always been someone else involved in making the decisions involved in my living space.  At most I’ve only had a single room and bathroom where I alone called the shots.  It’s not enough. I need to live on my own.

Financially speaking, having a roommate is the smart thing to do usually.  It has been for me in the past.  But I’m done with that.  I want to have my own small kingdom to rule.  I want to buy furniture I like and not care if someone else appreciates it in the same way.  I want to share my space and my things with no one else, except maybe a cute puppy.

So it is on my list now.

I will live alone somewhere, somehow.